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Salvia Chronicles

Salvia Divinorum is a hallucinogenic herb that is currently legal in most of the United States, although I’m not quite sure why. Salvia is typically found in dried leaf form, ranging from $20-$80 for approx 5 grams or so. The leaves can be smoked through a bong, bowl or pipe and/or can also be rolled into a joint or blunt of sorts. The Salvia “high” can set in after only 30 seconds and lasts for only a few minutes. Salvia was at one time used by shamans to predict the future, thanks to it’s hallucinogenic properties.

I was encouraged to purchase some salvia from my local smoke shop by a few co-workers and friends of mine. I purchased a small bag (approx. 5 grams or so) of dried leaves at 40X strength for approx $40. I smoked the herb out of a glass pipe as recommended by the associate at my shop.

But before I go ahead, here are a few examples of how Salvia affected friends of mine :

Co-Worker 1: “Jim” smoked 80X strength and found himself in his work office with his co-workers pointing fingers at him. The walls of the office began to melt and peel off. Suddenly, he was awake and back in his living room. During a second smoking session, “Jim” found himself inside of a Nike sneaker running across a parking lot. He literally thought that he was small enough to be bouncing around in a sneaker’s sole.

Co-Worker 2: “Sarah” felt like she was melting into her surroundings. She also recalled seeing a wide open ocean all around her.

Friend # 1 : “Rebecca” recalled feeling like she was trapped inside of a plastic box that she could not tear herself out of. She was not in a state of panic, but in more of a state of confusion.

Friend # 2:
“Alisa” and “Michelle” enjoyed a smoking session together. “Alisa” stared at “Michelle” and complained about how she was not allowed to leave the house with the striped paper walls. “Michelle” was wearing a yellow and black striped shirt and “Alisa” was convinced that “Michelle” was the one holding her hostage.

My Salvia Experiences:

Experiment #1: I decided to smoke by myself for the very first time. I had read that being around other people could ruin your hallucinogenic trip. I took as large of a hit as I could (also recommended) and I sat back awaiting craziness. My muscles seemed to tighten and I began to stare at my limbs. They seemed extra long. I tried to reach out to items sitting on a desk across the room and I could swear that they were just out of my reach. I refer to this trip as my “Stretch Armstrong” incident. I felt as if I could literally throw and extend my arm like a “Stretch” doll.

Experiment #2: I wanted to give it another go a few weeks later. Mostly just because I had quite a bit of Salvia left from my first experiment. I smoked out of  a glass pipe again and found myself laughing hysterically.

Experiment #3: I found myself in a hospital room with a woman with short reddish hair. She had her fingers to her lips and she told me to “Shh” and that “There is no talking in here”. I tried desperately to respond, but my vocal chords felt strained and pulled off to the right side of my face. It was a bizarre experience but after 40 seconds or so I was snapped back into reality.

Experiment #4: I was in a completely blank room. You could not tell where the floor began or where the ceiling ended, it was just openness. A young blondwoman in a red dress with some sort of pattern that I could not make out was calling for me to follow her. A gentleman with her, who reminded me of a 70’s flashback, was pulling on me to get up and follow them. I didn’t find out where they were going as I traveled back into reality.

I’m left wondering if the visions that I were having were some subconscious mumbo jumbo, or was I tapping into some mental state of awareness where others (like my mysterious friends) could communicate with me? It’s crazy. Has anyone else had an interesting experience? I would love to hear what other people’s experiences were like!

Money Makeover

I have about 10 months to get my financial situation under control. We aren’t broke, but we are spenders not savers. Being in my early twenties, I’m hoping to develop good financial habits now so that I can be financially stable my entire lifetime. I’ve tried countless times to try and get my situation under control but once I do, I end up back in the same old spending habits.I’m taking a stand. I’m getting over my debt and my spending today.
Right now.
Right this very second, I’m putting my foot down.

Image Courtesy of Brains That Work

“I like to spend money.”

Over the course of the next few weeks, I’m going to discuss a few financial programs that others have recommended to me:

Total Money Makeover – Dave Ramsey
How to Get Out of Debt, Stay Out of Debt, and Live Prosperously – Jerrold Mundis
The Everything Get Out of Debt Book – Cheryl Kimball

I’m going to talk about the values and techniques that I learn and how it is changing my financial future day by day. I hope that this will be an informative and fun journey. Good Luck!

Dear Daddy


Robert Joseph Macaulay Jr.

June 3rd, 1966 – February 28th, 2010

This is the third or so time I’ve tried to begin this post. I’m at a loss for words and I’m not sure exactly what it is that I want to say. I’m still in a bit of shock. Although my father has been battling cancer for most of my life, it still doesn’t make it any easier to deal with the fact that he is now gone. His health had seriously deteriorated over the past year or so and I am so thankful that I was able to see him one last time before he passed.

Dear Daddy,
I just want you to know that I love you so much. You were a fantastic father even if I didn’t show it all of the time. I wish I had spent more time with you and told you how much you meant to me and how thankful I was for you. So many memories come to mind and my eyes are filled with tears. I am happy that you are no longer in any pain but at the same time I am so sad that you are gone. I’m going to do the best that I can to be strong for everyone and help them cope.
We all miss you so much already. You will never be forgotten. You will live on forever in our hearts and minds. I  can’t wait till I get to see you again on the other side. Please give hugs and kisses to Andrew and Poppy for me.
Rest in peace knowing that I will always be thinking of you and how much we all love you.

I will forever and always be your little girl.

I’m a reading machine!

I have been reading through novels faster than usual lately. Here are a few I’ve finished, started or have yet to read that are worth picking up!

“Fallen” by Lauren Kate – Similar to Twilight with forbidden love. But I love Daniel Grigori so much more than Edward Cullen and I think the plot is much more exciting! The sequel novel, “Torment” will be available Autumn 2010. I can’t wait!

“The Immortals Series” by Alyson Noel – Ever has lots of extraordinary talents like seeing auras. The plot is complex and fantastic. Evermore is Book 1.

“The House of Night Series” by P.C & Kristin Cast – I’ve devoured these novels in one sitting at a time. In the  new world if you are marked by a tracker you are forced to go through schooling at The House of Night. There is a pretty long series available which makes me so excited and leaves me still craving for more. Marked is Book 1.

Seaside Orthopedics – Ocean Isle, NC

If you ever have to visit an Orthopedic Doctor, I recommend that you stay as far away from Seaside Orthopedics as possible. They have an office in Ocean Isle, NC and North Myrtle Beach, SC.

So here’s the back story:

Yesterday, we went outside to simply move the horses into another pasture around feeding time. Somehow, our biggest horse Oscar, got excited and kicked backwards. My Mom was standing just close enough that his feet clipped her arm. I took her to the hospital and she has a fracture in her arm (ulna to be exact). They created a make shift cast and sent us on our way with a referral to see Dr. Young, an orthopedic specialist.

So today began:

I called Dr. Young’s office at about 9:00 a.m. and told them I needed to make an appointment for my mother to get a cast for her arm. They asked if we could get there by 10:45 a.m. and they could squeeze her in. I thought that was fantastic and that we could get her taken care of today instead of sometime next week. Little did I know that their office was in Ocean Isle, NC so I had a 40 minute drive to get to their office (even though they have an office in North Myrtle!).
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Get Out Of Debt: Steps to Change

debtorGetting out of debt is not only making payments. In order to stay out of serious debt, you must change your mentality on spending and learn how to manage your debt behavior.

Take it slow.
Its impossible for you to make all the changes you want to at one time. If you try to take them all on at once, you are bound to fall back into old habits discouraged. Paying off debts is not an instant fix; its a lengthy process towards a new financially stable. Take a few weeks to monitor your spending to find where your habits lie. Take another few weeks to try and curb your spending and form a budget that will benefit your lifestyle. Once everything is in check, then you can take all of your new found knowledge to begin your debt busting regimen.

Don’t forget to be realistic in your thinking.
Short term goals are extremely beneficial. Once you accomplish these you will have new found confidence in yourself and you will push yourself even harder to accomplish your long term goal of paying off all of your debts. Stop accruing debt first and then begin paying it down. Depending on the extent of your debt situation, it could take a few years to be debt free. Reward yourself every time you achieve one of your goals so that you can encourage yourself to continue. How happy will you be when you can open your credit card statements without a shock, or you can answer the phone without wondering who is on the other end of the 800 #?
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Get Out of Debt: Wants Vs. Needs

pigDiscretionary Spending is key to eliminating debt.

*Wants* Anything that you would like to have to increase your quality of life, but you could survive without. Jewelery. Nights Out On The Town. Makeup. Video Games. ETC.

VS.

*Needs* Anything required in order for you to survive. Food. Water. Shelter. Clothing. ETC.

Always set realistic goals for yourself. By setting easier goals for you to accomplish at first, you will keep  yourself from becoming discouraged. For example, if you have a habit for purchasing clothes a little too often, cut back to buying one article of clothing each week and work yourself up until you only buy one piece of clothing per month.

Based on past trends in spending, food seems to consume most families income. It’s the same old story: You spend quite amount of money stocking your refrigerator with healthy delicious foods. After a late night at work, you are too tired to cook anything and decide to just pick something up for dinner.

Did you know that the average family of four can spend up to $50 on just one meal at a fast food restaurant?

So although food is a NEED, eating out and spending a weeks worth of groceries on one meal is not necessary. So the next time you plan to stop and pick some chow for the family at McD’s, ask yourself if making an extra payment on your car note or a cheeseburger is more important to you!

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Get Out Of Debt: Let’s Get Started

debtI NEED HELP.
I’m in debt.
I want to get out of debt.
I’m going to make the changes necessary to get out of debt.
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Question: If you make approximately $40K a year, what is a reasonable amount of debt for you to have each month?
Answer: You should spend no more than 30% of your take home income each month on housing (rent or mortgage). Additional debts (i.e. credit cards, car payments, etc) should only account for, at maximum, 10% of of your take home income. Using the $40K example above, that means that you should spend no more than $990/mth (approx.) on housing and $330(approx.) on additional debts.

The 4 Things You Need To Do To Get Out Of Debt:

* Pay Attention -> Look at your income and monitor every expense. Before you swipe your debit card, contemplate if the purchase is a WANT or a NEED. If it is a NEED, is it possible to get the purchase somewhere else at a better price? Do you really need the high quality version at this time?

Simple Trick: Pay for as much as you can by personal check. Paying by check allows you to have exact records of everything you purchased so that you may look back and see exactly what you spent most of your money on.

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Get Out Of Debt: The Beginning

I don’t like the term ‘new year’s resolution’. If there is something you want to accomplish, it is something that you should be working on every day,  not just at the beginning of a year. If you keep the resolution mentality then you will most likely fall off the band wagon after a few months if not sooner.cut

In an effort to help change my lifestyle and assist many others who have the same goals for this year, I’m going to begin a series on getting out of and/or drastically reducing debt. ?Based on the information that I will be researching through books, mentors and counselors, I am going to discuss the information here on my blog.  I would love active participation from my readers!

Whether you are in debt or not, please stick around and get advice or even give advice to those who need it.
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help“I consider myself out of debt when…?”

First off, Congratulations in accepting the fact that you have a debt problem and you wan’t to overcome it!

I will consider myself out of debt once the only payments I owe are for “good” debts. I consider mortgage payments, car payments and/or insurance as good debts. What does being debt free mean to you? Will it be when you only have “good” debts to pay? When you don’t know anything to anyone? Defining this question starts building a great foundation for your debt free journey.

Before you begin you also need to consider and identify the reasons you got into debt in the first place. Is it due to you living beyond your means? Is it due to a job layoff, a divorce or a time of emotional distress? By identifying the reasons you are in the place you are  today, you can do your best to prevent the situation from reoccurring. I am in the situations I am today because I was living beyond my means, I was infatuated with material possessions and my addiction overtook my wallet.
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Dear Me..

@oubipaws was talking about putting up a blog post about what he would say to himself 10 years ago..and I just loved the idea so much that I’m stealing it right here. :)
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2010Dear Ms.Caesi @ 12-
12 years old…wow, what can I say that is appropiate for you at your age? Maybe you should tuck this away and read it in about five years when your world completely changes…for the better and worse..hmm…

The next ten years are truly going to be some of the best times of your life. So many people, so many big events and so much to live through its just crazy for future me to look back and observe. You are going to meet so many great people and run into plenty of bad ones.

Trouble is an indefinite part of the next decade, but I can tell you now that even at your lowest points when you think you can’t make it through, you will survive and be so much stronger on the other side.  You are going to get into crazy scenarios and make amazing memories with hundreds of people. No seriously, hundreds, I tried to make a list once..I got to page 5 and were too tired to go on. Take your time and study hard but don’t forget to live. Happiness and laughter are the spice of life.

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